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October · Joined: 03 May 2011 Posts: 32 Location: East of England

Hello again. If you didn't catch my intro I am Toby. I want to write my experiences here but I am worried it will be too long a post. So I am kind of torn. I don't want to put people off reading it nor commenting. I also stated in my intro I have not met many if ay people who can relate or understand as they haven't been through the same sort of thing. I was often made to feel outcast or a freak of some sort. Even my closest friends have been afraid of me, or rather what I have seen,felt, heard or experienced. I'll start at the beginning. Always makes sense Razz

So we shall part 1 - lol , cos I know I will not be able put it all in one.

Okay, my first experiences were when i was 3 years old about. There was a lady in my bedroom mirror. All I can say is she had dark hair and tight features and she would have been beautiful if her face and aura didn't reek of malice and evil. She used to stare at me as i lay in bed trying to sleep. And I would cry for my mother. She would come and the woman would leave. Then there would be a discussion my mother explaining it as a bad dream and tucking me back in. As soon as she had left there the lady would be smirking and laughing. She hated me. I knew it, I could feel it. The event would reoccur until my mother finally took the mirror away cos she believed me. Thank god.
Shortly after I remember being on my bedroom floor in the middle of the night somehow and there were two 'monsters'. Like made up out of like fuzzy darkness or like... hm you know when your little and you stare at the light then you close your eyes. And there's like lil' colored blobs falling down your inside of your eyelids. Like made of that. But I could hear them and see them. And i was terrified.

After that I always 'knew' that the lady in the mirror was down the lane opposite, I don't know how I knew. I just knew that was where she was, or had come from.

Through my childhood I saw an array of people who weren't there. I was also petrified of a portrait of my step grandfather. I don't know why. I love him very much. I guess it may make sense later but maybe not.

I had many experiences with an entity i felt was called Jack. It was something i felt. And I could hear him in my head. I know its odd but he told me he was my brother and I was his favorite ad he would protect me. When I could hear him there would be lights dancing on the wall. I would look outside for car lights street lights man made light of any kind. Id shut the curtains. But it would still be there. I was a young teen at this time. As I was upset Jack would come. But I haven't sensed him for a long time now. It is excepted that Jack was my brother through my family now. So although they look at me oddly sometimes, my family generally accept these occurences. My little sister is the same and has had a few too. Also in my teens there was a long term haunting of my mothers house, where we all lived. There was the little girl. With long blonde hair and a slight form. Tiny little thing, but quiet and peaceful. She didn't scare me. I saw her only once or twice. But heard her may a time in the night going up and down the stairs. I would think it was my sister and go to her aid being that she was very small. She was fast asleep in bed. It was alarming at first but then not so much. Cos I guessed it was the girl I had seen. I guessed it to be a child because the footfalls were light and quiet, that of a child and once i heard her humming. But not in a scary creepy ghost child way. She seemed quite content. The other was a man i my room mostly. I would sense and see on very odd occasions him in my chair and could sense that he was watching over me. It was a little odd again but I didn't feel like I was in danger. I wasn't afraid-afraid. After a while of sensing him I asked him who he was, I didn't hear him talking to me only saw a noose hanging from the ceiling and i asked you killed youself? He seemed to agree this though its odd to explain as he didn't talk, just I knew. I asked why.. and I saw him in my head vaguely. A middle aged man in a red velvety dressing gown/robe. And I felt his sadness. A terrible sadness. Ad he missed his wife very much. His sadness and death somehow connected to her, in his hauntings I felt him stroke my cheek, my hair,he was a presence often felt in my room. With extreme cold spots and when he was present the room would be freezing. When mom tried to make us all move again, the children were strongly opposed. Ad 666 came upon everything. Mobiles, tv channels, the home phone. Mom was freaking . She woke up to someone standing over her bed, a man. And she was hit on the top of the head. During the family meeting about the move we all sat down stairs , us children upset or crying or saying why we didn't want to go. And there was an almighty crash and we went up and the table in my bedroom had flown across the room and made a massive scratch and indentation/hole in the wall. It was physically impossible to why it could of happened. We were amazed and mom was terrified. We didn't move. There were alot of occasions I want to tell you about but again. I do not want to over load this post. Which I probably already have. And it's like ramblings so I am sorry if it is not as detailed as it should or jumbled. I don't talk about them much. I often saw people who other people couldn't see. Ad i would get visions i certain places. And feelings of places or people.My dreams were often odd and sometimes on rare occasions they were of stuff that was true that I didn't know. Trivial stuff. But enough to frighten me.I had had many dreams that felt different to other dreams and I would feel like i was out of my body like I few my other body was somewhere else. And several times I had to push back into my real body it was a very odd feeling, disorientating. And some of the times i was like this i saw scary things.Like once there was a man with a white face. No features, ad at first he had bee an inanimate object but the he was moving and real and malicious.There were hands in some of these dreams. Thats how it felt. Like hands lifting me up into the sky. And then I was in my room floating, held up by these hands pulling me to the ceiling and i was struggling to get into my body, to stay on my bed. I woke up and cried. One time totally seperate i was like in one of these sorts of dreams and id come home and i was pinned to the ground by a cold force, it filled me with terror. I was dragged across the floor and then it was just gone and thought maybe it was a dream but i remembered crawling up onto the bed, to my sleeping body again? I can't be sure. These dreams have happened frequent but not regularly and not for years and years until a month or two back. And I think in this one i had just got back to my sleeping body and i thought I had woke up, there was a force of someone lying on top of me, ad he asked are you cold love.I was freezing so I said yes. He lifted the covers round me and he was all the while on top of my back and he was freezing. Then there were two people that came in my front door which is right beside my bedroom door. They looked in and saw me, the other ghost/dead man having vanished.I was disorientated and trying to get into my real body it felt and they closed the door saying i was asleep and wandered through into my lounge. I was struggling to wake up for real and I was terrified. I woke up and the room was freezing. I was certain there were people in my home. I checked the door was shut cos it was freezing like nothing else. And the door was shut. I wandered through and i was so terrified, I was sure there were people in my home. But there weren't.
I often see the things in my mind its quite odd.Like the 'ghosts' if that's what they are. I walked into my sisters kitchen for the first time and in my mind eye i saw someone hanging from the light fixture, I had terrible feelings in that apartment. And I physically felt pressure on my chest. I couldn't breathe. And i had i felt like it smelt even though it didn't. It terrified me and I refused to go there often. Having only been altogether around 3 times in the whole time she lived there.Once at a friends I heard someone ask, " what are you doing?" loudly whispering in my ear.There was no-one there.They had two regular ghosts in their home. The mother being quite like myself. I often felt animals bump into me at my mothers house. I would look down to tell them off or pet them but they weren't there . They would be in the garden. A number of times i took the corner to the stairs too fast and fell forward about to go head first down the stairs and hands would pull me back. But there would be no-one there. Not that I wasn't grateful of course. The medium lady said my grandad had been with me regularly throughout my life, so I guess it was him that is the male ghost who stays with me. I hadn't noticed him for a log while til a few nights back when he sat on my legs i bed. I think I have wrote about quite a few occasions, and probably have babbled far too much and probably missed a lot of stuff. But I can write other posts. I have probably sent a god half of you in the other direction and the other half are probably asleep. I apologise if so. I am guessing it is easier to say this stuff face to face but obviously that's not how it works here. Anyhoo anyone that was a constant reader and you have any opinions or questions or feedback. Please do.

October · Joined: 03 May 2011 Posts: 32 Location: East of England

I also forgot to add that on two occasions my mom flew up the stairs in a rage i had a male in my room without asking, and i was dumbfounded being quite alone. She said she could hear him talking to me. And i said it was probably the telly or the radio but she said nothing was on , she had been ironing and heard someone talking to me, and saying my name . She thought I had sneaked my boyfriend in to stay or something. I thought she was crazy. But perhaps she heard the ghost. I don't know. Surprised

flossy · Posted: Wed May 04, 2011 2:46 am Post subject:

wow toby you have a lot of experiences there lol
i dont think your a freak at all you are obviously very sensitive to ghosts/spirits
i look forward to reading some more Wink

October · Joined: 03 May 2011 Posts: 32 Location: East of England

Thankyou Flossy Very Happy

It's hard to not feel like a freak. It is advertised that way by society I guess. If you aren't 'Normal' whatever that means, then you must be a freak. All I can say is it's a lonely place to stand so you do try block it out. Not even conciously and I think that is sad. Sad

I realise I maybe do this. It can be scary too. Even more so when you are in it alone. And that is just being different, let alone all the crap just regular life brings lol.

But again thankyou for being so kind Flossy x

October · Joined: 03 May 2011 Posts: 32 Location: East of England

Another series of events related to a ghost of a woman, I would say of the the 1940's era.Her hair was curled in that manner and she had a fur coat on, she came two or three times that I remember. When I was crying in bed and I looked up to her sitting on the end of my bed rubbing my leg as though to comfort me. I was not afraid more like maybe shocked? and I was quite comforted by her. In truth. A few years later my mother shew me a picture of her nan, Connie.and it was the same lady. I shyly told my mother thinking she would laugh at me or think me weird. But she said quite the opposite and said she too had seen Constance when she was child sitting at the end of her bed. Several years later I spoke to my brother about it and he too said he had seen this woman. Surprised

I guess family really do come back to watch over you when you need it.

thecactus · Joined: 07 Mar 2011 Posts: 3196 Location: Northern Ireland

wow you have had a lot of experiences Toby. Do you think they were all real or could some have them been imagination/substances? Don't get offended by that Im just asking and sometimes things come across the wrong way when you type them Very Happy

The first story about the woman in the mirror was good - was there something significant about this mirror - was it antique or anything?

what did you mean everything came up 666?

Are you religious?

Do you think you have had out of body experiences?

You might find this interesting and see similarities:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ZSLFhJuMeI&playnext=1&list=PL060539B7DF83EF5C

all in all very interesting

October · Joined: 03 May 2011 Posts: 32 Location: East of England

I am willing to consider that it is other things. But I can only tell you it certainly does not feel like other things. And as you said there is a lot of situations. So I would have to be actively looking for it all the time. I am skeptical and cynical myself so I do ask for most other solutions bar obviously the ones i have not thought of.If there was a rational reason i would contemplate it and probably be quite happy that it was normal. Though I really don't think you could.
The mirror I don't think was significant. I think from memory it was actually part of the wardrobe/dresser it was attached to. As it was all white wood. And new.

Also everything that could be dialed, was dialling up 666 or 666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666 .By itself.It was freaking my mum out badly.

I am religious in the way i believe in something. A god. Or higher power. I pray to whatever it is. But I do not necessarily believe the bible is a book sent down by god that I should follow. I think it could have been a book wrote to control the masses and encourage order and peace. I like to visit church now and again with my baby sister but i go when noone is there and we have our own little prayer and light a candle and i teach her stuff about being a good person and accepting etc. Its a very rare occasion. I sort of have my oen faith if that makes sense at all.

Ands as of for outer body. Or astral projection. Yes I think maybe that is quite possible from the memories of my dreams and the sensations and affects of them on me . It could just be vivid dreams but the getting back into my body echoes loud with o.b.e I think it is very possible. And it really does scare me.
I hadn't seriously thought on it til today and your video was interesting if a little scary to consider. lol.

I think partly i supress my gift alot for worries of it making me vulnerable.

Agentscott · Joined: 08 Feb 2011 Posts: 1042 Location: Essex

Hi October,
Love the signiture if it's the same truth we seek then I hope you find it. Wink

I really enjoyed reading your posts and found I paticulay agree with your veiw of the bible, it's a book for controling the masses for sure.

I wonder what your veiw on UFO's are and weather or not you have had any sightings?

October · Joined: 03 May 2011 Posts: 32 Location: East of England

Nice to meet you Agent Scott.Thanks for your feedback. It's much appreciated. I seek all truth :) So I am sure ours are the same at some point :D lol.
Okay the U.F.O's ... now you know what... I think it would be very narrow minded ad a little silly/egotistical to think we are the only intelligent life forms i the universe. I haven't had ay sightings that didn't turn out to be helicopters or shooting stars. But it really would not surprise me one bit. There is much of the universe untraveled. There is a lot we don't know. To acclaim to such things as there aren't aliens or there aren't ghosts is poppycock. Just because you haven't seen something doesn't mean it doesn't exist. People are afraid of the unknown , I get that, truly I do. But I hate that it's branded insanity or stupidity to believe or otherwise.I mean I believe i alot, but were I to be proved wrong I wouldn't cry about it. Like I said I respect the truth. Very much so. Ad it is what it is. What I ca't stad is people who are so certain and adament that there beliefs are correct. Am I rambling? O-o lol. Sorry. How about you Agent Scott? Whats your deal? Ad what's your opinion on u.f.o's?

Toby x

October · Joined: 03 May 2011 Posts: 32 Location: East of England

p.s excuse my n key its halfway broken :/ .. >.<

flossy · Posted: Thu May 05, 2011 12:30 am Post subject:

your not rambling lol
you make some very good points Wink

thecactus · Joined: 07 Mar 2011 Posts: 3196 Location: Northern Ireland

The dialing of the 6s - I guess if you arent religious you wouldn't associate that with the devil? But it does sound very unusual. Perhaps the entity/spirit doing it simply wanted to scare you's/make you's leave

If the mirror wasn't significant why do you think it stopped when the mirror was taken away?

Yes I find OBEs very interesting and plan to research into it a lot more.

October · Joined: 03 May 2011 Posts: 32 Location: East of England

Hellos Cactus :3 How are you today ? And I actually think the 666's was to frighten my mum. She was the only one who wanted to move. Us kids were distraught. It was her it was doing it too and she had a man by her bed and a swift slap to her head. We didn't leave and this all quietened down to the usual level of presence. That house was very active. The animals even picked up on it,
my baby sister saw men digging in the garden. There was noises and obviously the stuff I have previously mentioned among other little tales.

As for the mirror, maybe the mirror was the only way I could see her, As I have mentioned I don't always see them. Maybe after she was still there she just obviously couldn't be seen. From my memory I am pretty sure it was not an antique.

Would you keep me updated with the OBE topic ad your findings :3 please.

Toby x

P.s As always thanks again Flossy *hugs x

thecactus · Joined: 07 Mar 2011 Posts: 3196 Location: Northern Ireland

Hi Toby I cant complain Very Happy

and she had a man by her bed and a swift slap to her head.
Laughing

your a poet who didnt know it

I agree with flossy - your not rambling

I have come across a lot of instances were people claim to have seen 'people' in mirrors, and I think all of them were malevolent cases, or just not a friendly presence.

It will take a long time to figure out if OBE is a real phenomenon; but I figure I can't take anyone elses word for it either way, so Im just going to look into it myself. I had a thread about it here somewhere but cant find it - another member here (mrx) done a lot of research into it; says 25 years and there was some good stories in it.

I am planning to learn to induce an OBE but first want to learn as much as possible about it, and it will take a long time to decipher good info from rubbish.

thecactus · Joined: 07 Mar 2011 Posts: 3196 Location: Northern Ireland

Ive just found it

http://www.worldofghosts.co.uk/viewtopic.php?t=4117&postdays=0&postorder=asc&start=0

Wink