my past is returning

kenvrickson · Joined: 08 Jan 2011 Posts: 14

i remember the 5 year long depression i went through and the worst was caused by the unseen making my life a living hell,
I have recently lived probably 2 years in absolute peace till one day i woke up and saw a large grey figure that looked like me except with a longer face and longer hair, only the chest and head. I remember 5 years ago seeing another presence in my room but less in human form, i was sort of not believing it at first but the thing was the after effects that happened through the 5 years after that that ended me up become having lost myself becoming violent and mad which caused alot of pain for those around me, i always look at it from a mental illness side as well but having had years of both sides of the picture i can now tell the difference between the paranormal and mental illnesses.

So anyways after seeing this i am now seeing the same things except more evil and realistic, the faces of the spirits i saw in the past- one example is when the ambulance came to help recover me from a possesed like state in the end they did something to calm me down but as i opened my eyes i saw what it was possesing me next to my parents, the pale white person was a floating head with no eyes and no toungue

i now recognise the face and figures and have been taken over by a different personality, i remember seeing a face in the mirror in the middle of the night, i saw it's eyes now, too small yellow dotsin it's deep black socets and the flesh had more texture, i tried to blink, blur, shake it out of me to see if it's my head but did not work, after staring at the face for a while i was completely taken over and could not move, i began talking to myself saying''look at me, do not fear me, do not deny me, you know this, i am right here''. Then all went weird and all my energy drained and i sat down and could barely move.

The thing is, is that i am on medication now, and this is top mark medication provided by my psycologists -that i rarely see now- that is suppose to prevent any visions happening, but none of my visions from my head or trick in my eyes were as real as this the difference was to big and i am now living i situations aswell in dreams where it's one of those things you say ''i do not care what people say, i know what i saw''.

Currently my psycologists cannot help me with this situation, any advice has been useless and no medication can help me, even recieving special help failed, so i now what i could be facing, but i am stornger now but not strong enough to get the good scare lol

D B Sweeney · Posted: Thu Mar 31, 2011 12:41 pm Post subject:

Hello Ken,

I've had first and secondhand experience of what you describe. I can only wish you well and suggest you gain your strength from wherever you find it.

DB

kenvrickson · Joined: 08 Jan 2011 Posts: 14

thankyou, i live life to learn and i am trying to learn as much from this state, i know even if it was mental illnesses it would be just as interesting, but the dream states i go into sometime feel just as real as how i live now, except from when i wake up it feels unrealistic.
I know as my psycologist cannot help me i have to find ways to get through this time easily and undamaged, i do not want to repeat my possesed or mad like actions in the past, i stand up to it now.

thecactus · Joined: 07 Mar 2011 Posts: 3197 Location: Northern Ireland

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